I Feel.....
i feel sick. today i woke up and felt like poo. last night i had work and i was ok till closer to the end of the night, when i started to get worse. i have felt a little scrach in my thoght for about a week or two before toady and then last night it just got crazy i was caughing every five min becuse i felt like there was a bug in my thoughs trying to clib up and out but it just wpould move. then i whent to sleep and had a great night sllep i slept like a baby but when i woke up i felt like i had been hit by  cement truck. i finaly got out of bed and found out that i couldnt talk when i tryed to let my sister know my car was in the garage. after i got bck from taking her to school i fell back asleep in hopes of felling better
I Think......
i think its crazy the way people care so much about there look i mean i undrstand that you have to look presentable for certan things like interviews and meeting and such but, just going to class i see girls in the hall every day that seem to have 6pounds of make up on to hide there real face of have short shorts or dresses and super high heels just to go to what two or three classes a day. whaen did we get so bad i mean today event though i feel horble and didnt want to do anything today i still put make up on because i wanted to one up a girl that is in my class that allways says she has to dress in nice close to look good. i dont know when we got so bad but things need to change or we are all going to lose areselfs
I Believe.....
i belive in all the funny carachers like santa and the easter bunny and the tooth fariy. i belive that yes they may not be mistical creachers but every day there are santas in the world. i mean when christmas comes around and you get all excited and run out to get gifts for your family and stand for hours in lines just to get that perfict figt for that perficvt somone you are being a santa to whoever that is. now some of use are santas that only care about ourselfs and would shove people out of the way for the last i pod but, there are thouse great santas the santas that we are todl to believe in when we are children the santas that i willing to spend more time helping somone eles thing helping thems selfs the santas that would go on and give the last i pod to the little kid that saved his money for a year hjust to try to get the black friday sale i pod.
I Know........
i know that we are all here for a reason i know that some people know exactly what they are here for i know that they sit and think of what it is that hey should do with there likfe what god or whoever they believe in want them do do with there life and just like that it comes to them like an epefany. but for me i dont know i dont know what my perpose is i hope i can find it but is of right now im just trying to get by i wasnt to help people and make a deffrents do something that peopel willl remember me for but otherthan that i have no idea what im here for why i was put here.

woody

I got to pick woody from the box of promps and the first thing that come sto mind the the fact that i have a major adiction to childrons shows. dysney pixsar all of it there my favorite. i work at a movie theater so like you would guess i get asked a lot what my favorite movie is and everyone laughs when they hear that its the lion king. the lion king is my facvorite movie because well i love exotic animals and theats what the lion king has in it the most and there is a great deal of singing and just reat animation it make me happy every time i watch it and its a movie that i could watch 15 times in a row and not care to watch it one more time. but thats kind of the way i am with a lot of childrens movies. i know that the movie is made for a audiance tht is much younger then i am but i see no problem with going to a movie that you know you will enjoy a move that you know that after you leave you will leav with a great feeeling. there have beeen so many kids movies in my life that have just made my day better if im having a hard day i take the time to watch a cute kids movie like tangled or toystory and i get to a happer mood. im ok with having an adiction to kids movies becuse its not one that really hurts me not only are the movies cute and make me in a good mood they also send a good message i mean like agfter watching tangled i was so happy and excited and  it wasnt till later that i really saw how it helped me i was happy and excited and becuase in tangled the prencess never gave up on her dream of seeing the lights she finaly made something happen and left the tower. this is something that really helped me to get a little further with my dream.

Amarican key chain

this key chain that just droped into my lap what dose it make me think feel do? its a read white and blue key chain that brings Amarica to mide and brings the forth of july. the fourth of july is one of my favorite holidays becuse, first it is in the celibration of our freedom. we get to have big have big partys with maving food and sweet music and a extreem amount of fireworks and boos. not most of you would think OH NO fireworks and boos dont mix but, they always seem to find eachother some how witch makes the night just that much mor intresting for me. the last forth of july i remeber was when we had gone to my sister Sarhas house and  ate some barbiqu and shot off fire  works. i remember sitting in the front lawn watching her nebiors go crazy with fireworks running around lighting one after the othere and as the rocketed to the sky the heads of all the friends and family around me shot up in  aw tward the sky. then someone dicided to bring out the achohal. this turned into and intresting affare becuse it turned the fun experiance of watching the guys run around lighting the wicks of the fireworks and running to a humerpouse event of wat

broken plans

me and my boyfriend were supposed to go out last night we had the whole day off from work and me from school so it would have been perfect, but it didn't happen. he had a meet and i understand he couldn't control that but I'm having a very hard time believing that he had no idea before hand when the race was expected to end. I'm just thinking that if he did know that he could have told me so i could have traded and worked Friday and got all of Monday off. I'm also a little hurt and confused, our schedules haven't been that great lately because of me working all the time us both having school his practices, and the fact that our jobs will not event come close to letting us work together or event have the same shift. so its been hard to find time but it seems like when i ask hey i dont work after school today do you maybe want to get something to eat before your practice and he will say i dont have a brake, which i know he dose because he will tell me about when he gos and dose things with his friends on those brakes, but i seems like he is blowing me off a lot or maybe he isn't and he really has no time but ether way it seems to me like I'M trying to find the time and trading MY shifts around so we can have some time but he isn't he isn't trying to make a little time in between studying like i am, hes not trying to see every second that there could be time we can see each other. i mean I'm not the kinda person that wants to be around him 24/7 but i am the person that would like to see him more then 3 times a month. i guess what I'm saying is I'm not ok with doing all the work to try and find time to hang out and I'm tired of most the times we plan to hang out we cant because something comes up.i guess i will see if we get to keep are plans Monday and how that gos but if we cant something has to change.

believe in my self

  A time that i believed in my self well that would prob have to be the beginning of my freshmen year. i wasn't the best at school in elementary and middle so in high school everyone expected me to do the same, be the same D student i had been but, i kicked it in to gear and believed in myself believed that i could do it and i graduated high school with a gpa of 3.0. when everyone didn't believe i could i believed In myself and kicked ass. i think that's all you need to when your trying to achieve a goal. i know that in the beginning my goal was not to sit and get a 3.0 in high school, but i do know that going in to high school i told my self i was going to be different i was going to be better. that's exactly what i did. in elementary and middle school i sat and didn't care what happened with my grade i just did whatever and when i would get called to the office or my mother would have to come in because of a bad grade i didn't give a rats butt. in high school it all changed i knew that i wanted to be someone different, i needed to be someone different for my mothers sake and for the sake of my future. so i started out paying more action being more involved in the conversations in class and when i came home with my fist quarter grades., no one believed it. no one believed that we had done a lot in class like i said we had , no one believed that i would stay  keep this up, keep my grades like this till event the semester. i did believe i believed in myself and that helped me to push on its what kept me wanting to show everyone that i could i could be just a smart ans my brothers and sisters i could have just as great grads as them and i could be that student that others ask for help.  me having that confidence that belief in myself i did all of it i change my life. i believe that all you need is a dream a gaol and the courage to go after it the strength to fight for the future you want and u can do anything.

what if ....

• i was to die
• the night was day and day waxs night
• dogs were not friends
• we were all vegetarians
• we all were the same
• everyone loved one another
• all the stupid people were out of the world
• we didn't have cars
• no electricity
• i was stuck in the desert
• if i was in wild on y own
• i had no Friends
• i had a mental problem
• i didn't have a job
•  i didn't have a family
• i didn't have the money to further my education
• i was born in a different country
• in i had a sibling die
• my mother dies
•  i get married
• have kids
•  I cant have kids
• what if i get divorced
• the man i want to be my husband didn't want to be mine
• i didn't graduate
• i cant find a good career
•  i wasn't afraid of anything
• i was a super hero
• i was skinner
•  taller
• shorter
•  fatter
•  happier
• nicer
•  more loving
• a better friend
•  a better sister
• a mean er person
•  not easily pusher around
•  i new a different religion
• had a different name
• i hadn't had my first time with the person i did
•  i was afraid of water
•  elephants didn't interest me
• i didn't have a brain
• i Had a terminal condition
• i knew when i was going to die
•  i knew if there was really a god or not
•  if i could see the future
•  i could fly

what if i wasnt intrested in elepohants????????

what if i wasn't interested in elephant? if i wasn't interested in elephant i wouldn't have a goal in life. i wouldn't have wanted to do good in college, i wouldn't have wanted to start college., and i wouldn't be where i am now.if i didn't have a goal in life for my future i wouldn't have a future, so many thing fall together once you have a dream, a goal, a place to go, a thing to do. if i never knew what to do with my life i would sit and be a slob and probably with my mother my whole life witch could potently mess up my plans of getting married and having a family. if i was a slob i wouldn't have been motivated to get up and get a job and therefor i could have the amazing experiences i have had in my life with that if i hadn't got my ass of the couch and if i hadn't had a dream i wouldn't be any one i would be a no body that no one remember just another face in the crowed just another name on a head stone when  I'm gone. and yet again another dream of mine would be crushed if. if i dint have a goal let it be working with elephant or event getting out of bed i wouldn't be the person i an today i would be me i would be Gabrielle but i would be the Gabby everyone knows me to be today i would be the sister the friend the girlfriend the student or event the human i am today. i believe that i would be a very unmotivated up friendly person not the outgoing person i know myself to be today i would  be a sorry excuse for a human and quite frankly i would probably not what to live. therefore i believe that having favorite thing having a goal in life having something to work toward we all would be dead we all would be miserable and life would have no purpose.so never lose your dream never let some one tell you they are pointless or ridicules because your dreams are just another thing that makes you who you are.

if i was the richest person in the world

if i was the richest person in the world, i would hope that i could be a cool person. i would hope i would still be me but, i know that money changes us, money makes us who we are in a sense, if i was to be rich i would be more confident i would have more things at my disposal, such as, more clothing higher education a faster car and that can change everything having more clothes i could have become more interested in them and became more of the girly girl,the i want to shop every day type. having more money for food i could have gotten super fat. just i my normal life now when i get a bonus or an extra buck i spend most of the money on food so i know if i had an unlimited amount of money i would be fat but then i could also be fit because i could have the money to make sure i was getting healthy and exercising. also if i did become the richest person in the world i feel like i would have to be working a lot i mean you don't normally have money fall into your lap so i would have to work or if it did fall in to my lap being the richest person comes with responsibly and fame. if i was rich i know i would have to have interviews and people watching me and my money every day witch would also change my life because, just think of the things that we do when we think no one is looking, think of the way we act with are parents in our homes when we know are Friends wont see, think of what you say about people when you think they wont ever hear it, then think what would happen to those moment if in all of those situations some one was lurking in the corner in the bush wherever just to catch you mess up. everything would change you wouldn't be you. i also hope that if i was rich i would help others, i would give money to people and animals in need. i would be the caring person that gives most therepaycheck to a charity but, reality is i may not. i would hope that i would use my money to go to places were people are suffering and maybe help just a little by trying to get them something be it medicine or just a hand to hold. but, I'm not famous and I'm pretty sure there are going to be like only two ways i could be famous so, the dreams of being rich are out the window for me but, that just means i get to be me and means made i can still help people event though i may not be able to give them gobs of money, i can still give them a hand to hold or a shoulder to lean on.

CIS

my first class of the day on Monday, Wednesday and Fridays is CIS a great computer class with a great teacher. the class starts at ten and every day i try to get there on time, and for the first week it worked but the more classes we had the more times I'm late. so today i got up and showered after i dropped my sister off so i would be good to go. then i layed down till nine, but really it was nine fifteen, i thought i had made sure to set an alarm but, no i jumped out of bed a rushed to get dressed sped over here and tried to find a good spot. i got in my seat at about nine fifty eight and, what did we do today work on the project that i had finished yesterday. that would be my luck come on time and i don't event need to be in class. that's how the day is going so i say to you day, bring it because I'm up and ready for you now.

setting up friends

yesterday i went on a nice bowling date with my boyfriend and a few of are friends, two of witch  we were trying to set up. now i mean set up in a good way as trying to introduce them so maybe they would date in the future. the night was great we went bowling and then we went out to eat every thing seemed to be going great at the bowling ally and they seemed to be hitting it off great but when my friend got in the car to ride to get dinner, when i asked her what she thought she didn't say if she liked him or not she just said," we he is....". i felling in the blank with something like," Awkward?" she then said, " well i guess kinda but hes like a loud awkward." the night went on and after i brought her home i wanted to see if she liked him or not so i ask again, "so what do you think about him?" she said," well umm......hes cool he just kept referring to my height witch you know i don't like, and he messed with me was to much, she said that it would have been cute is he had done it once or twice but the amount he did it was just annoying. then when talking to my other friend he said that he really liked her and though she was super cute and funny and its up to her if they go out. i want them to work out because they are what the other needs. but first imprecision's are everything, and event though my male friend was just acting the way he dose when he is nervous and would be a total gentlemen on the second date, my female friend is quick to judge so my praying she takes a leap of fate and takes that second date. i guess you cant make every thing the way you want, because in my head the way i saw it going down was they both had a great time got another date and started a relationship, so that me my boyfriend and them could go out together and have fun. i guess one of the situations where the song,:" you cant always get what you want." comes in to play.